It's official....AGAIN :)

Monday January 17th 2011, My official "leaving" date for the Peace Corps....again. Definitely a lot of the same feelings. Anxious, happy, relieved, scared. It's bitter sweet. I have no doubts about it though, that's why having all of these feelings are soooooooooooooo amazing and wonderful. Its been about a year since I came back and today marks one year since the earthquake in Haiti. It is still unbelievable to me. One year went buy so fast. I am forever thankful for allll of my family, friends, Peace Corps family, Namibian family that helped me made the right decision that worked best for me. At the end of the day, I made this decision and I do not regret it at all. Now going back to Namibia may be hard for some to understand but to me it is the only thing that makes since to me in my life right now.
Although leaving home this time around is definitely much harder, I find myself having some sad moments during the day wondering about my family and friends daily tasks without me in them. I am trying to enjoy these last couple of days soo much. I know I will miss them, although once I get to Namibia I refuse to have the word "miss" in my vocabulary. Shoot that's just setting yourself up for failure.

I am still packing, a task that I will never like doing in my life. Although I know this time around I will bring more shirts since I literally just packed two of them last time lol. Also I am bringing more clothes that helps my personaly shines through. I think I missed that memo last time. I read soooo many blogs and sooo many people's "packing list" that I forgot to include MY favorite style of clothes in the list. I am not saying that those blogs and lists aren't helpful they are...very but I did get caught up. This time around...naw buddy I am bringing more then two shirts lol. For all the people out there doing Peace Corps Namibia one day...DO NOT pack 2 years worth of sanitary napkins and toiletries. When the letter from Namibia says you can buy stuff in country...you can REALLY buy stuff in country. My advice is, bring things that you like, that will remind you of home, that will make you smile but do not bring an excess of them as if you will use them everyday. Things to you use everyday, you can buy in country the things that you do bring you will save for a rough emotional day that you may have :)

t -4 days... :)

with Love
...orange spaghetti

What would you pack?

If you did it all again...what you pack? That question crossed my mind many times while I was in Namibia and now that it is happening, yea I am not sure. What I am sure about though, I will not pack as much crap as before lol lol....

I have about two weeks left to get everything in order...so we will see how that goes, either way I am ready!!!!!!!!!!!

Accepting life for what it is brings happiness :)

It is true, I know because I have been doing it and I feel happier. Things happen, things will happen and I will never be able to change some of these things. I have let go of so many things and just been accepting life for what it is. Yes I am working 2 brainless jobs and that was never part of my plan at this point in time in my life, I cant complain because it is what it is. At least I have a job and I am able to save money. There is just something about accepting it all, its like I can feel some control in my life. And with some of that control, I can decide to do what I want, when I want and How I want...what more can I ask for?

I cant believe 2010 is coming to an end. New Years feels like yesterday, in Namibia with Shawn and Caroline (Some of my peace corps lovers lol :) and we were toasting to the best year ever. Where we were going to make things happen no matter. Where we were going to just live for the moment and help as much as we can...no matter. 11 days later, my life changed and I never expected it to change that drastically. This year has been more then expected, tears and sweat but today I can say that I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel...a couple of months ago I wondered if that could ever be possible. The world is not perfect, Life is not perfect, I am not perfect and things will never be just the way we want. I am just trying to live the best way that I know how and it has been working, so thank you God. Thank you for the strength, courage, patience and love that is helping me see the light at the end of the tunnel, and that is all that I pray for you (reading this) and for myself.